Happy it is Monday...Odd...

Yep I am sure glad that it is Monday. Only for the simple fact that Cam gets home today. This week of him being gone hasn't been the best week. I have realized that I am the type of person who likes to look after others not myself. I find that I have a very nurturing personality and I enjoy looking after others. Making sure that their needs and wants are satisfied before my own. So, when I have no one to look after I guess I feel lost in a way. With Cam being gone for the past week I have had no one to look after or feed. That is the major issue I have, when it is just me I don't feel like cooking or preparing much in the way of nutritious foods for myself. I will eat out too much or I will have a bagel for supper, or a sandwich, or soup. Something quick and easy. It definitely takes a toll on me and my body. The lack of vegetables and fruit. Today I woke up with a really bad stomach ache. So I am thinking because of my lack of nutrition that my body is accustom to my immune system is a little weak and I am getting sick :o(
Tonight I am going to go home, go grocery shopping and get some vegetables, fruits, and a whole lot of other healthy foods. Because Cam is home tonight I am sure that things will get back to normal and I will start looking after him and myself!

Although I did have a really good weekend. Saturday was a much needed day indeed for myself, as well as my girls here. I spent the day at the mall with my sister Danielle and my very good friend Michelle. After we finished our pedicures I went home and picked up my dog and headed over to Michelle's house for the night. She has two dogs and all three dogs got along really well. Us girls went out for a very nice supper at Opium and then headed back to Michelle's for more drinks and we played with Michelle's new hot rollers. We were up late gabbing, laughing and sharing past stories with each other. We have quite the history us three girlies. Living in the city I tend to feel lonley at times and miss my friends from home. Having Michelle and my sister in the same city as me is so wonderful becuase I know I always have them. I have new friends that are from here, but friends that I grew up with and know me and who I am is the most wonderful thing to have. We don't hang out nearly as much as I think we would all like to, but we all have rather busy lives at the moment. Michelle is in the nursing program at UofA, and my sister..... well she works a lot. It was just really nice to have a weekend of girly things and girly time.

Kicking Down the House

Yesterday wasn't the best day for me in anyway. Cam dropped me off at work in the morning, and we said our goodbyes. I won't see him now for a week. He got sent to Prince George for work :o( So I carried on my day at work how I usually would. When I got home from work Zoe was happy to see me as usual, and so I leashed her up and got her ready to go outside so that she could do her business. As I was walking out the door I for whatever reason locked the handle on the door and closed it..... instantly as soon as the door slammed shut I realized what I had done..... oh crap, I just locked the dog and myself out of the house..... Keys are hanging on the key hook, purse with wallet and cell is sitting on it's regular perch..... crap crap crap.... what am I going to do the only other person with a key to get in is Cam and he is on his way to Prince George. Otherwise I would have just gone for a walk around the neighbourhood till Cam got home from work at his regular time. I didn't have a phone to call anyone with, or find numbers to people that could rescue me (other than my sister and Ryan their numbers are the only ones I remember). I was screwed. I thought for a second to walk to my sisters house but then that would mean that I would have to walk through a sketchy part of town..... So that was out. I am not very close with any of my neighbours to use their phones to call a lock smith, provided one would still be open. I thought to beg the bus driver to let me ride the bus back down to work, but I had the dog with me.
The only choice I had was to kick my own door in. Three kicks and WABAM!! I'm in. Minimal damage was done to the door, I am still able to close and lock the door. I had to screw in the handle back into the side of the door a little bit, but all is well and I learned my lesson. I guess worst case scenario I might have to replace the door. We will see what Cam has to say when he gets home.

The Forever Debatalbe Topic

I don't know why but I think for as long as humans exist on this planet there will always be the debate as to why girls are different from boys. The other night Cam and myself were out walking Zoe around the block so that she would do her business before bed. We have been rather busy the last week and a half and she has been couped up in the house with no one really around for her. So, we decided on taking her for at least a little walk. Anyways, as we were walking we got to discussing about me :o) hahaha.... I was saying about how I am unable to shut my brain off. I am constantly thinking about my day, things I need to do, things I've done.... everything. I can't just not think. Cam was saying how he can sit down and turn his mind off no problem and not think about his day or things that has to be done. Not think about anything? I asked. I find this hard to believe because the human mind has to be thinking about something at any given point. He assures me that he is pretty mindless when he is sitting down and watching tv, or in bed going to sleep. He isn't thinking about his day, he isn't thinking about things he needs to do. I guess that is where I come in, I have to remind his ass of things he has to do. So I guess what I am wondering is.... can all men just shut their brains off? Can other woman shut their brains off and think of sweet nothings? Am I the crazy one? hahaha don't answer.....
I find that because I am unable to really 'turn' my brain off I'm constantly thinking and it affects me more than I realize. The constant racing thoughts are a symptom of my panic disorder. Just if I am in one of my attacks the thoughts are fed through a lot quicker pace. I believe that this blog site for me has been a really good vice for me to be able to voice my opinions and share my thoughts and just put them out there. Who's reading my blog that would care? Well I am sure there are friends and family members that read it every once in a while that care for me and care about what I have to say..... oh dear..... I am letting my mind wonder. ON that note I am going to end this here.
But if anyone out there in blog world has any input to tricks or ideas on how to shut their brains off I am all ears....boys and girls..... I am interested to test my theory if woman can possess the power to shut off their brains and if there are any boys out there that can't shut off their brains, or if I am just making assumptions based off of Cam and me?

An Exhausting Weekend

It was a long weekend. We started on Saturday morning with classes at Aqua-Tek Scuba with Shawn. We went over a few chapters, got our gear organized and ready for the afternoon in the pool. We got to go home for a break before we had to go to the pool (lucky pug she didn't have to hold her pee/poo for the whole day) then it was off to the leisure centre for our pool training. We learned a lot of useful things in four hours. Then Cam and I had to rush home to get ready to go out for supper for a friends birthday. We made it to the dinner an hour late...oops...others were late as well. It was a great supper! Awesome food! It was a little pricey but that's okay Cam and I both don't mind paying for good food.
Then on Sunday morning it was back in the pool for more training. Then more classes in the afternoon at the shop. When they are teaching you to scuba dive they are basically teaching you 'worst case scenario' situations. So what to do in case something goes wrong, because lets face it you are 100 feet underwater and you can't just go to the surface because you can die you need to know what to do if something goes wrong. After we finished filling out the rest of the paper work at the shop we were done that part of our training. It is just the open dives we have to complete now. Which we are doing this upcoming weekend.
Because we are braving the elements and doing our dive in COLD water we opted to take our dry suit course. So, again we were in the pool last night learning how to dive with our dry suits. What a feeling that is. It is amazing the difference that you feel in a wetsuit compared to a dry suit. I somehow managed to injure myself while learning. I guess I descended to quickly and my ears didn't equalize for me on the way down how they usually do and by the time I got to the bottom my left ear was in a bit of pain, but I HAD to finish this course. My dives this weekend depended on it. So I cleared my ear the best I could and equalized it the best I could and continued on with the lessons. I just couldn't go as deep as Cam could because the pressure was too much for my little eardrum to deal with. It is still a little tender today, but I think a good nights sleep as well as sleeping with my left ear on a magic bag will help to dislodge the discomfort. So I should be in top form by the weekend because we will have to go 80 Feet by the end of the weekend. Or at least I have a feeling we will because once we are fully certified we are able to go 80 feet on our own. I don't intend on doing such deep dives in the future, but you never know.

Weekend is here!

This weekend is going to be so much fun. Tomorrow morning Cam and I start a scuba diving course which is a two weekend course. So tomorrow we start with Classes in the morning and then we are in the pool for the rest of the afternoon. Sunday we are in the pool in the morning and class in the afternoon. I am so excited to learn and play around in the water. Growing up on a lake every summer has fueled my love of being in water. However, I don't really like cold water. The thought of being able to breath while I am underwater and play around learning buoyancy and all the skills I will need to know for diving is very exciting to me. The only down side to this program is that we have to do our open water dives (4 of them) next weekend in a lake just outside of Edmonton. It is going to be COLD! However, we are taking a dry suit course (on Monday) so that we can wear long underwear and fleece while we are diving underwater. So really the only part of us that will get wet will be our faces.
When we were in the Dominican in 2005 we went scuba diving there, and we both loved it and from that point both wanted our open water diving ticket so that we didn't have regulations to how we could dive. We procrastinated till now and are finally doing it. Would have been nice had we done this in the summer months, but what can you do, our trip down under is fastly approaching and we want to see the Great Barrier Reef while we are there so we are doing it! I am assured that with the dry suit and wearing long underwear underneath will keep me relatively warm for the open water dives. So I guess the trick is to learn how to do the skills in the pool quickly and efficiently and get in and get out of the lake ;o) Wish us luck!

Counting the Days

I am so excited for what the future holds for Cam and I. After yesterday I am so ready to get on with it and move out of Edmonton. On my lunch yesterday I decided to go and try to find a bathing suit in the mall. Because it is lunch time there are people everywhere, that is just to be expected. At the same time though I would assume people would be a little more courteous towards their fellow man. I don't think I have a bigger pet peeve than slow walkers, or people who block the escalator when you are trying to go up. People will walk in groups of two or three and block pretty much the whole walkways of the mall. You try to go around but there are always people coming towards you as well, so you try again when the coast is clear, and then for whatever reason the group of people need to shift that way and walk the same direction you are trying to get around them in. AHHHH it is so frustrating. So finally you get around these people and you can carry on your way at your pace to get to where you are going.
As for the escalators, people like to stand beside each other on these things. So if you are trying to walk up them you can't because you are blocked by the people ahead of you. Just because it is an escalator doesn't mean you can't walk up/down it, or at least move over if someone is coming up behind you or down behind you and wants to get around. If there were stairs I would take them, but there are only escalators in the City Centre Mall. I gather that people are just lazy.
Everyday I take the bus to and from work. I enjoy the time I have just to sit drink my coffee and go to work, or just unwind from my day. I usually bring my Nano with me because I like to listen to my music. There are basic rules for the bus, that they have posted as advertisements on the bus. It reads:

Now I am not saying that I follow all these rules to perfection, but I try to be as courteous as I can towards other on the bus. And the other day I was listening to my music and I could hear the persons music across from me over my own. I think that is just completely inappropriate. Most people don't want to listen to what you are listening to.
I think I would be foolish to believe that it is only in a big city that this kind of stuff happens in, because lets face it there are inconsiderate people all over this fine planet of ours. I guess I just haven't noticed it as much till I moved to the city here and have lived here for a year and a half. I think I would end up snapping on someone if I lived here longer than I am.
Everyday there are things that just boggle my mind that I see in Edmonton. Like yesterday Cam and I were driving out to West Edmonton Mall, and we saw a little kid probably between the ages of 5-10 riding his bike along one of the busier streets without a helmet. It just made my stomach turn upside down to think of the things that could happen to this little guy. Where are his parents?
Either way, sorry for the angry post, yesterday was just a very frustrating day for me, but on the up side I got to talk to one of my best friends on the phone for a while (Nikita I love you and miss you terribly) and I got to buy a new bathing suit for scuba diving! So my day didn't end too badly :o)

Random Post

I am having one of those days when you just feel.... good. I can't explain it or pinpoint why I am so happy. On the other end of that I can't think of a reason why I would be sad. The past couple of days I have had some friends from my past contact me. It is odd how this is the week that people want to contact me. It is great! I love reconnecting with old friends.

One of the people who has contacted me is a friend from LONG ago. When I was living in Vancouver. Her and her mom lived down the street from us, and we played all of the time. She was a great friend and we had a lot of good memories. Then my family moved away to Nelson, and she moved to Surrey. I think we exchanged a few letters here and there when we were younger, but we loss touch after awhile. Life gets busy. She found me on Facebook and wrote me a note asking me if I am who she thought I was. So now I have found out that she has two daughters, still living down the coast and is doing well. I am very excited to start chatting and catching up. A lot has happened in the past 18 years since we have talked!

Another person who contacted me is a friend I went to college with in Castlegar. She was a great friend while I was going to school. I don't know how I would have gotten through it without her. She is such a beautiful person inside out. She now has a baby, and wants more. Everyone is having babies.

Lastly is a friend who I met through curling. He is one of the most kindest people I know. We haven't curled together, but we have been at some of the same cash spiels together and have shared a few drinks and laughs here and there. Again life got busy and I lost contact with him. I look forward to curling with him for the 2008/2009 season.

With these people contacting me it makes me wonder who else is going to sneak up from my past and surprise me with a little note. Only time will tell.